Darkness In Me

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Sometimes I believe life would have been so much easier if there was an operative manual for it. I would have applied less logical thoughts to all unnecessary and stupid conversations, sleeping like a baby in the night. I felt this so deeply that there should be a manual so I am thinking of creating one for myself. I believe my first and foremost manual would be on “how to move on?”. I am someone who already writes, goes to the gym, rides a bicycle, goes for running, does everything that one could expect a single person to do to get hold of life, so for me, this manual is mandate to survive my dark side. I believe we all have it but some of us deny it. There is nothing to be ashamed of it but then acceptance is as much important as any other aspect of life to heal you positively. I am taking baby steps to come out of my shell before I lose it all and I know if I would keep on working on myself, I will win over this darkness that’s eating me up from inside. I guess, it has always been there, it’s just that now I know its patterns and ways to deal with it in a better way.

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